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What Have I Become

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1.
Blind 05:36
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As a child, I knew That the stars could only get brighter And we would get closer Get closer As a child, I knew That the stars could only get brighter That we would get closer Leaving this darkness behind Now that I'm older The stars should lie upon my face And when I find myself alone Find myself alone Now that I'm older The stars should lie upon my face And when I find myself alone I feel like I am blind I wish the stars could shine now I wish the stars could shine now For they are closer, they are near But they will not present my present They will not present my present It makes my past and future painfully clear I wish the light could shine now I wish the light could shine now For it is closer, it is near But it will not present my present But it will not present my present It makes my past and future painfully clear To see you now To hear you now I can look outside myself I must examine my breath To see you now To hear you now I can look outside myself I must examine my breath And look inside I feel it I feel it I feel it I feel it
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Demon 05:20
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I can hear you in the back of my mind Like a bad idea Like a bad idea There´s no point in try and hide You´re a bad idea You´re a bad idea Demon (x4) All the things I leave behind Just because of you Just because of you I can feel you sucking me dry You´re a bad idea You´re a bad idea Demon (x4) I told you before and I will tell you again What I have made I can also destroy To bury you I will get my hands dirty To get rid of you I´m willing to kill myself (yeah) Demon (x4) We did this before it always ends ther same way What have I become if not another stupid mistake Please give me a gun so I can end this misery To get rid of you Im willing to kill myself (yeah) … You are just a stupid mistake You´re a bad idea You´re a bad idea You´re a bad idea You´re a bad idea Demon (x4)
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How Did I Get Here 05:08
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You´re looking for trouble when you scratch the old scabs she left Marked in my soul, like the scars in the back of Jesus Christ You leave me no choice, every time you invite me in Only to see me on my hands and knees I'm corrupting myself every time I kneel before your desires You´re all I see, you´ll be the end of me Leave me alone I cant take no more You´re sucking me dry, you´re sucking me to the bones All this shame I feel and nobody even knows I'm a slave and she owns my soul I'm looking for trouble We´re going full circle But there´s no way around you How did I get here We´re going full circle I cant remember how I got here All my efforts to keep you away Keep hitting the wall of my need for decay I cant remember how I got here I cant remember how I got here I cant remember how I got here I cant remember how the fuck did I got here Always looking for trouble Always looking for trouble Always looking for trouble I cant remember how I got here I cant remember how I got here Always looking for trouble Always looking for trouble
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When I Look Into The Mirror 05:32
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Hey now your time is running out It is tic tic ticking away There´s nothing you can do They wanna lock you in a cage And take take everything from you Enough of this game You cant hide from me Im already deep inside of you No more hidding from me Im what you see when you look into the mirror Narcisistic freak Im a creep A whisper in your ears All this need to feel to be so unreal Like a hunger I cant satisfy, you suck me dry And I cant deny, you´re always on my mind If I could I would undone you If I could could I would leave you Its too late You´re all I need now Its no shame Everyone needs a thing If I could I would undone you If I could could I would leave you Its too late You´re all I need now Its no shame Everyone needs a thing Narcisistic freak Im a creep A whisper in your ears All this need to feel to be so unreal Like a hunger I cant satisfy, you suck me dry And I cant deny, you´re always on my mind Narcisistic freak Im a creep A whisper in your ears All this need to feel to be so unreal Like a hunger I cant satisfy, you suck me dry And I cant deny, you´re always on my mind If I could I would undone you If I could could I would leave you Its too late You´re all I need now Its no shame Everyone needs something to go on
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Bits 05:08
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Bit by bit I slip into you I dont know your face I dont know your name I dont know who you are But still you remain We roll, we crash We burn to ash And this love is fake Cause I bleed without pain Bit by bit I slip into you I dont know your face I dont know your name I dont know who you are But still you remain We roll, we crash We burn to ash And this love is fake Cause I bleed without pain I never met anyone like you So free and unforgiving Bit by bit I slip into you We roll, we crash We burn to ash And this love is so fake Cause I bleed without pain
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Take Me To You 05:32
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I pray my Angel Take me to you I pray my Angel Take me to you You dont need to be alone You dont need to be alone Let me join you Let me join you I pray my Angel Take me to you I pray my Angel Take me to you It shouldn´t have been this way It shouldn´t have been this way All my efforts to make you proud All my efforts to make you proud I cant handle this anymore All I wanted was to get closer to you It shouldn´t have been this way It shouldn´t have been this way All my efforts to make you proud All my efforts to make you proud I cant handle this anymore All I wanted was to get closer to you
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Another Day In Hell 05:43
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Just another day living in Hell Im not alone, they are with me Now we burn as one Like it should be I sold my soul so easily I let you down I let you down I let you down I let you down And now I wait It should be any minute now After all I done just to reach you After all I been trough just be with you I cant undone all of my sins I cant erase all of my past All I wanted was your approval All I ever wanted was your love If you´re up there watching me now We both know I wont make it I let you down I let you down I let you down I let you down All I wanted was your approval All I ever wanted was your love I let you down I let you down I let you down I let you down I let you down I let you down I let you down I let you down And now I wait It should be any minute now I regret the things I never told You I regret the things I did to you Ran away just like a coward All I wanted was to save my skin And to think you were my true love Left alone whith your bad luck And to think you were so pure Now I cant even look you in the eyes I was afraid I was afraid I was afraid I was afraid All I wanted was your approval All I ever wanted was your love I let you down I let you down I let you down I let you down I cant even help myself I cant even lift myself up So beaten up so fucking tired how was I sopposed to carry you
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I Am Lost 05:36
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You´re too late, I mean it I´ve been here before And I know it always ends the same way There ´s always something to be afraid of And I know, what you´re doing And I swear I want it too but it slips from my grip I cant reach it I´m pulled to this circle just to be spit and sucked again In an endless spiral of pain and decay I am well over my head and there is no help that can help me now I am lost This pain Im feeling is so deep within me now I cant erase my sins they are a part of me I have to let them out I tried, but it seems there is no way around them And I know the way but why do I feel so lost in the end I´m too late, feel it I´ve been here before And I know it always ends the same way There ´s always something to be afraid of And I know, what you´re doing And I swear I want it too but it slips from my grip I cant reach it I´m pulled to this circle just to be spited and sucked again In an endless spiral of pain and decay I am well over my head and there is no help that can help me now I am lost This pain Im feeling is so deep within me now I cant erase my sins they are a part of me I have to let them out I tried, but it seems there is no way around you And I know the way but why do I feel so lost in this place I am lost I am lost So lost I am lost
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Somewhat Damaged 05:06
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So impressed with all you do Tried so hard to be like you Flew too high and burnt the wing Lost my faith in everything Lick around divine debris Taste the wealth of hate in me Shedding skin succumb defeat This machine is obsolete Made the choice to go away Drink the fountain of decay Tear a hole exquisite red Fuck the rest and stab it dead Broken bruised forgotten sore Too fucked up to care anymore Poisoned to my rotten core Too fucked up to care anymore In the back off the side far away is a place Where I hide where I stay Tried to say tried to ask I needed to all alone by myself where were you How could I ever think it's funny how everything that swore it wouldn't change is different now just like you would always say we'll make it through then my head fell apart and where were you? How could I ever think it's funny how everything you swore would never change is different now like you said you and me make it through didn't quite fell apart where the fuck were you
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The Architect 05:34
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There´s no place I rather be Other than my head I put on my nicest dress And go out to see what I can catch Its the only way I can feel something Something other than pain And for a moment I can forget (That you´re no longer here) I use you I use you to feel I use you to feel something I use you to feel again Its just a ritual What harm can it do Its just a ritual What harm can it do I said you wouldnt get In my head again But I fear that once you´re gone There wont be anything left So you are everything now You are my design I need you I need you to feel I need you to feel something I need you to feel again I need you I need you to feel I need you to feel something I need you to feel again

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The Sixth Annual Report Of slave voltage
FILE N 23 - What Have I Become
Loathsome Records 2015


01. Blind
02. Demon
03. How Did I Get Here?
04. When I Look Into The Mirror
05. Bits
06. Take Me To You
07. Another Day In Hell
08. I Am Lost
09. Somewhat Damaged
10. The Architect

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released March 12, 2015

slave voltage:

Ricardo Cruz
André Moura

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